I told my dad about what happened at school today when he was taking me to the office, Every time I was in his car I feel a solemn sadness from him an aggravating noise from nothing. He looks nothing like he did only 5 years ago, he's grown more tired, more reclusive, he starts to seem more distant from me upon learning more about my condition.

I try to joke about it and laugh it off, but to him it's very real. I know this is something he doesn't have a choice in, I know it's all my fault, it's not a real thing, not physical. I wish it were physical so I would at least have an excuse for this to happen.

This week it's almost time to trade me off to my mom, so for almost a week he doesn't have to think of me. He doesn't have to worry anymore, he doesn't have to be there anymore.